OKAY

I haven't posed anything here for a long long time. ! I have to write things down though I have done it a little and it all sits in a txt file in my laptop.
I think from now on in major part of my blog I will write in english because I have gained many new friends abrod, who don't understand estonian and still would be interested to read my stuff ;) so this is for you my friends... though I can't really take the responsobility for my english writing, because it might contain many mistakes and ununderstandable words which perhaps I myself have invented. but anyway I didn't do that when I was writing in estonian as well.
Its really strange to read the things that I have written here since I stared my blog. It's strange because I can relate to the emotions and feelings I had at the time I wrote it. I remember exactly how I felt when I was waiting in the airport the first time I left to germany... I guess that people actually remember their emotions better then other things. they do it unconsiously, so it just grabs you. I guess that experience is also all about that.. To get the right feeling or to avoid it. Well I don't know. Anyway it doesn't matter. What matters is that I'm glad I wrote things down, since it brings me closer to what I've done and what I've felt. Also helps me understand who I am today... Not in a really filosofical way, just in a pure natural emotional way.
Anyway I'm writing my thesis right now and it's not going so well, since I have a lot of questions which I don't know how to answer. I will still try to do my best and succeed, which of course I will ;) everybody will :)